A little bit about me...

Firstly I'm going to tell you a little bit about myself, I'm Megan and I'm 30 years old! I'm a very happily married and excited mummy to be, baby boy due in November 2017! I have been with my gorgeous husband over 9 years now and married for 4 we have waited what feels like a very long time to become expecting parents, it's been a rocky road but I will go into that more later!

- My hot husband and I

This blog will be about my journey to becoming a mum then how my journey as a new first time mummy. I will also share my lifestyle, home, fashion basically all the things I love and all the life experiences I will learn on the way! I think I will post a Part 2 to this to share more about why I'm creating this blog.

We live in a little village in Buckinghamshire and I'm fortunate enough to live close by to some of my lovely family. I have an 83 year old Nan and Grandad but they show me every day that age is just a number and I can definitely say they have a better social life than me! I also have 2 wonderful aunties, an uncle and quite a few cousins. Although I hate the word cousins... it really doesn't show how important that relationship is as to me they are like little brothers and sisters. This is my mums side of the family, she was one of 4 and there is 10 cousins in total and I am the eldest! And the favourite... well to my Grandad haha.

These last 6-7 years have been extremely challenging for me as a person, as a wife, as a sister and as a daughter which is one of the reasons I wanted to do this blog.

I have 2 younger brothers who are now 22 and 26. We lost our beautiful mum very suddenly just over 6 years ago now. At the time I had one brother at university and one lived with my mum as he was only 16. These boys are a huge part of my life, always have been and I love them with all my heart.

Life has been pretty shit and really does show you how to toughen up and how to learn from different circumstances that life unexpectedly throws at you and is out of your control. This as you can imagine turned our lives completely upside down, I know everyone thinks it but I really do think my mum was the best mum in the world and I can only dream that I will become half the mum she was to us to our little boy. Sounds cliché but she was my best friend, my rock, we were a team and the older I get the more I realise how lucky I was to have her. If your reading this go tell your mum tell her you love her, phone her up, give her a hug and never take her for granted.

- Me & my lovely mum. (P.s. I have grown into my ears)

This is why this new experience in my life really is so special to me, but also becoming a mum without your mum feels very scary and is something I'm going to have to take each day as it comes and I will share with you how I get on. It's strange (or maybe not) as recently for reasons I've not had to worry about before I've been feeling like something was missing and it wasn't till the other day it clicked. I have a little bump and struggling with what to wear as this is a new thing for me, you know when you just want your mums opinion (good or bad), it hit me when I realised that was what I was missing. It's always a big thing but sometimes it's the little things that stop you in your tracks. As you can see in the picture above, my mum and I both had a love for fashion and I always think she was ahead of her time! Of course I can ask my husband or my friends or family but it's just not the same as your mum is it and it's small things like that we can't take for granted. Even writing about this now is really hard but I've come along way in 6 years and I have only recently become able to talk about it. Around a year after we lost my mum we also lost our Dad, he was a fantastic Dad growing up but we had a turbulent and somewhat estranged relationship over the years but I will go into that some more later. I will probably say this quite a lot or something a long these lines that we have to learn from our past other wise it was all a waste of ours or other people's mistakes in life or relationships. I feel I had an amazing childhood and I have the best memories but there were struggles as I'm sure so many other people had but I think it truly makes u into the person you are today. It also makes you very mindful which is a positive thing!

So there is a brief, and hopefully not too depressing but important part of me and my life so that I can now be truly honest as I go forward in my journey. Thank you for reading.

- Megan